Sunday, November 16, 2014

Why?

Why is it so hard to do something so easy?  I mean it is simple, right?  You are careful about what you eat.  Don't indulge too much and don't limit yourself too much.  But if it were so simple, I wouldn't be in the predicament that I am in.  I wouldn't be 100 or so pounds overweight.  I wouldn't be so unhappy with myself.  So why is it so hard?!

I was watching The Biggest Loser the other day and Dolvett was telling someone that you need to figure out what is going on in your head before you can have any success in keeping weight off.  I need to be nicer to myself and don't say horrible things about me. 

Why do I have a weight problem?  The answer is not so easy.  I don't have any tragic stories of  a horrible childhood or abusive relationships.  I think I just like to eat and then it got out of control. I have come up with a list of all the little things that contributed to my gaining 100 lbs over the last 10 years.  I am hoping this is the beginning of my healing process.

1. I got married and I gave up on me.  I went through a phase during college and the first couple of years after when I gained some weight, but I started working out and eating better.  I lost the weight, and I looked GOOD!  I met my husband and things moved quickly. We were engaged within 6 months and I packed my bags and moved to the big city of Atlanta!  I didn't have a job right away, so that was stressful. After a year we were finally married.  I stopped working out.  We ate out a lot.  We bought a house soon after.  Then the babies started coming!!

2. The babies.  I had my first son in 2006, my daughter in 2008, and my youngest daughter in 2010.   There are 3 1/2 years between my oldest and youngest.  You could say I was am a bit stressed.  There were so many sleepless nights, so many diapers, so many bottles, so many tantrums.  I just gave up on me.  It was all about the babies.  It is STILL all about the babies.  Now they are ages 8, 6, 5.  They are involved in a lot of stuff.  Every night there is somewhere that one of them needs to be.  It is exhausting!! 

3. Work.  Did I mention that I also work a full time job as a Kindergarten teacher.  Not sure I need to elaborate more on that.  I come home exhausted EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.  Oh, and our teachers lounge has lots of sweets in it on a consistent basis.  Chocolate, cookies, cakes, chips, dips.  And I eat it.  Lots of it.  I think about the food while I am down in my classroom.  My mouth waters thinking about the food.  I have a problem.

4. Lack of sleep.  I am a night owl.  I stay up late, but not too late.  Most of the time I go to bed between 10 and 12.  But my alarm is going off at 5:15.  I come home from work and I am exhausted, but I can't rest.  Like I said before we have activities, dinner to cook, bedtime routines. 

5. After the above mentioned night time routines I plopped down on the couch and tuned out in front of the TV.  LAZY.

6. I know my husband loves me and I love him.  I also know that my husband is not attracted to me.  This makes me sad.  He never says anything mean to me about it.  But his actions show me plenty.  My husband is very fit and works out a lot.  He doesn't seem to understand why I don't.  He tells me all the time how easy it is.  Just do it.  And I agree.  It is so easy, but why can't I do it?  He has been sleeping on the couch the last several months.  Apparently I snore.  A lot. 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

21 Day Challenge

Hello friends!!  I know, I know!  I have been gone for a long while!  I am not sure why I shy away from here when I need it the most!  So, I am going to try this again.  I really need a place to get my thoughts off my chest!

http://www.marksdailyapple.com/#axzz2stE78c6E
 
Well, my hubby listens to Mark's Daily Apple podcast and subscribes to his newsletter.  He is constantly sending me links to articles that he has read and thinks I will like.  I don't always always read everything he sends me!!!  My hubby is in great shape, works out consistently, and for the most part eats pretty healthy... except for the pint of Ben and Jerry's he had tonight!  hehe..  So, we eat healthy at home.  I cook most of our meals and try to use a lot of 'from scratch' ingredients.  We have cut out so many processed foods we were eating.  No more mac n cheese at our house!  The  last few weeks (really since around Christmas) have been hard.  We have not been prepping our food like we use to, and I was not making my meals in advance. Well because of that, more and more fast food and processed foods have been brought into the house.  I have just become so lazy!  M

My husband suggested that we follow Mark's Daily Apple and the 21 day challenge.  (In my opinion, he is doing this for me.  I think he sees my health spiraling out of control and it scares him.)  Now, I will say my hubby does like to eat healthy, and even though I think he is suggesting this for my benefit, I think he will enjoy it.  It is a Paleo diet, but we may tweak it a bit.  Paleo can be pretty strict on the foods you eat and also the types of meats you buy.  It is not in the budget at this time to buy all organic and grass fed meats to feed a family of 5.  Also, on Paleo, you are not supposed to eat beans.  We decided that we would still include beans in our diet.  They are a healthy food and we use them in our chili each week. 

This is not going to be something that will be hard to do AT home.  My biggest challenge comes when I am not at home.  I have a HUGE sugar addiction.  Let's just say, the other day at work I ate more than 5 donuts.  And each time I was not in the teacher's lounge, all I thought of were the donuts that were in there.   And I made up things that I needed to do, that all had to take place in the lounge. 

So that is my challenge.  I need to find things to take place of the sugar.  And sugar is everywhere at work  I can't remember if I told y'all about the chocolate bowl at work.  Yes, the PTO fills it up EVERYDAY!  I can't have just one. 

Well I have LOTS more to say, but I will save it for another day. 

Any thoughts for me to help me get through my sugar addiction? 


Jaime
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