Sunday, November 16, 2014

Why?

Why is it so hard to do something so easy?  I mean it is simple, right?  You are careful about what you eat.  Don't indulge too much and don't limit yourself too much.  But if it were so simple, I wouldn't be in the predicament that I am in.  I wouldn't be 100 or so pounds overweight.  I wouldn't be so unhappy with myself.  So why is it so hard?!

I was watching The Biggest Loser the other day and Dolvett was telling someone that you need to figure out what is going on in your head before you can have any success in keeping weight off.  I need to be nicer to myself and don't say horrible things about me. 

Why do I have a weight problem?  The answer is not so easy.  I don't have any tragic stories of  a horrible childhood or abusive relationships.  I think I just like to eat and then it got out of control. I have come up with a list of all the little things that contributed to my gaining 100 lbs over the last 10 years.  I am hoping this is the beginning of my healing process.

1. I got married and I gave up on me.  I went through a phase during college and the first couple of years after when I gained some weight, but I started working out and eating better.  I lost the weight, and I looked GOOD!  I met my husband and things moved quickly. We were engaged within 6 months and I packed my bags and moved to the big city of Atlanta!  I didn't have a job right away, so that was stressful. After a year we were finally married.  I stopped working out.  We ate out a lot.  We bought a house soon after.  Then the babies started coming!!

2. The babies.  I had my first son in 2006, my daughter in 2008, and my youngest daughter in 2010.   There are 3 1/2 years between my oldest and youngest.  You could say I was am a bit stressed.  There were so many sleepless nights, so many diapers, so many bottles, so many tantrums.  I just gave up on me.  It was all about the babies.  It is STILL all about the babies.  Now they are ages 8, 6, 5.  They are involved in a lot of stuff.  Every night there is somewhere that one of them needs to be.  It is exhausting!! 

3. Work.  Did I mention that I also work a full time job as a Kindergarten teacher.  Not sure I need to elaborate more on that.  I come home exhausted EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.  Oh, and our teachers lounge has lots of sweets in it on a consistent basis.  Chocolate, cookies, cakes, chips, dips.  And I eat it.  Lots of it.  I think about the food while I am down in my classroom.  My mouth waters thinking about the food.  I have a problem.

4. Lack of sleep.  I am a night owl.  I stay up late, but not too late.  Most of the time I go to bed between 10 and 12.  But my alarm is going off at 5:15.  I come home from work and I am exhausted, but I can't rest.  Like I said before we have activities, dinner to cook, bedtime routines. 

5. After the above mentioned night time routines I plopped down on the couch and tuned out in front of the TV.  LAZY.

6. I know my husband loves me and I love him.  I also know that my husband is not attracted to me.  This makes me sad.  He never says anything mean to me about it.  But his actions show me plenty.  My husband is very fit and works out a lot.  He doesn't seem to understand why I don't.  He tells me all the time how easy it is.  Just do it.  And I agree.  It is so easy, but why can't I do it?  He has been sleeping on the couch the last several months.  Apparently I snore.  A lot. 

Sunday, February 9, 2014

21 Day Challenge

Hello friends!!  I know, I know!  I have been gone for a long while!  I am not sure why I shy away from here when I need it the most!  So, I am going to try this again.  I really need a place to get my thoughts off my chest!

http://www.marksdailyapple.com/#axzz2stE78c6E
 
Well, my hubby listens to Mark's Daily Apple podcast and subscribes to his newsletter.  He is constantly sending me links to articles that he has read and thinks I will like.  I don't always always read everything he sends me!!!  My hubby is in great shape, works out consistently, and for the most part eats pretty healthy... except for the pint of Ben and Jerry's he had tonight!  hehe..  So, we eat healthy at home.  I cook most of our meals and try to use a lot of 'from scratch' ingredients.  We have cut out so many processed foods we were eating.  No more mac n cheese at our house!  The  last few weeks (really since around Christmas) have been hard.  We have not been prepping our food like we use to, and I was not making my meals in advance. Well because of that, more and more fast food and processed foods have been brought into the house.  I have just become so lazy!  M

My husband suggested that we follow Mark's Daily Apple and the 21 day challenge.  (In my opinion, he is doing this for me.  I think he sees my health spiraling out of control and it scares him.)  Now, I will say my hubby does like to eat healthy, and even though I think he is suggesting this for my benefit, I think he will enjoy it.  It is a Paleo diet, but we may tweak it a bit.  Paleo can be pretty strict on the foods you eat and also the types of meats you buy.  It is not in the budget at this time to buy all organic and grass fed meats to feed a family of 5.  Also, on Paleo, you are not supposed to eat beans.  We decided that we would still include beans in our diet.  They are a healthy food and we use them in our chili each week. 

This is not going to be something that will be hard to do AT home.  My biggest challenge comes when I am not at home.  I have a HUGE sugar addiction.  Let's just say, the other day at work I ate more than 5 donuts.  And each time I was not in the teacher's lounge, all I thought of were the donuts that were in there.   And I made up things that I needed to do, that all had to take place in the lounge. 

So that is my challenge.  I need to find things to take place of the sugar.  And sugar is everywhere at work  I can't remember if I told y'all about the chocolate bowl at work.  Yes, the PTO fills it up EVERYDAY!  I can't have just one. 

Well I have LOTS more to say, but I will save it for another day. 

Any thoughts for me to help me get through my sugar addiction? 


Jaime
Jamberry Independent Consultant
www.facebook.com/jamswithjaime
www.jamswithjaime.jamberrynails.net

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Shopping and Chopping

How do you keep yourself accountable during the week?  Well, my husband and I  started shopping our local Farmer's Market each weekend and then prepping all of the veggies.  (Well that's the plan!)  Our PLAN is to go shopping on Saturday or Sunday.  We like to divide and conquer. One of us will take a couple of the kids and go to the regular grocery store and the other one of us will take the other child and go to Farmer's Market.  I prefer to take the one child!  Less distractions and I get done a lot faster! Plus, I don't have to deal with the constant bickering!  I actually prefer to go to the Farmer's Market and do the shopping.  I go in grab all the fruits and veggies that we need for the week and then I am out the door.  There really are  a lot less distractions at the market.  When I go the grocery store I have to deal with things like this:
Seriously?  I LOVE chocolate and peanut butter. 
They just had to go and put them in a Pop-tart!
So, most times, I leave the grocery store shopping to The Hunster with 2 out of 3 kids!  I'm just nice that way!  He doesn't have a weight issue so these kinds of things don't bother him.  Occasionally, he will get a craving for ice cream (I mean, who doesn't).  He will buy himself a pint of Ben and Jerry's and eat the whole thing.  He will not gain one damn pound!!!  If I eat 1/2 of it, I gain 5 pounds! 

So, I shop at places that don't make me drool as I am walking the aisles.  Don't get me wrong, I love fruits and veggies, but I don't just sit around and think about broccoli and apples all day, YET!!!

Since I have been on summer break, we have kinda gotten out of our weekend shopping and chopping habit.  It just gets left up to me to do during the week, since I have nothing better to do!!  Well, I didn't make it to the store until Tuesday night!  By then I was too tired to come home and start chopping.  So the veggies sat in the garage fridge until I made myself get up today and chop.  It does take a lot of time and effort (especially if you are doing it by yourself!)  But, it is so worth it in the end!  This is what my table looked like this morning:
Isn't it pretty?  :)

Our  list usually consists of a couple different types of lettuce, spinach, onion, mushrooms, carrots, peppers, green onions, green beans or asparagus, squash, zucchini, avacado and this week I am trying out eggplant.  Then I always buy grapes, red and green apples, bananas, a usually strawberries and kiwi. We opted to buy all the vegetables fresh instead of already chopped and bagged in order to save money.  We can usually buy 3-4 bundles of lettuce for under 3 dollars and it will last almost all week.  If we bought the bag lettuce for just under 3 bucks it would only last us a day or two.  I probably spend about $35 a week on fruits and veggies. 

At the regular grocery store, we buy our bread, meat, pb&j, oatmeal, snacks for the kids, and other basic cooking needs for the week.  If my husband goes we usually spend about $70ish and if I go we usually spend $90 a week.  Not sure what I do different! 

Typically we eat the same menu each week.  I do get bored with it at times, so I will throw a new item in the mix.  It makes things easier when we do it this way.  It makes it easier for the kids also.  I make things I know they like, so I am not constantly fighting them!  When I do make something different, I can test it out once and see if it meets the standards of the kids!  I am not a short order cook, so I will not cook several different meals!  You eat what's on the table or you don't eat! 

Anyway, that is what we typically do for the week.  This way there should be no excuses that there is nothing to eat.  There should be no reason to have to eat out.

How do you prepare for the week so you are not tempted by fast food?  Also, since this is my first time cooking with eggplant, do you have any great recipes or blogs that I can visit to find some?  Thanks!

Monday, July 15, 2013

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly: My Weekend

I hope everyone had a really good weekend!  IT IS STILL RAINING HERE IT ATLANTA, GA!!  We have had rain something like 19 out of the last 23 days!  I read somewhere that we have had more rain this month (like 40in) than Seattle has had all year!  Yikes!  It has gotten better lately where at least there are just scattered summer showers now instead of the scary thunderstorms we had been getting. 

Well let's just start with The Good.  Hmmmm, there is not too much of this. :(
1. My kids had two bday parties this weekend, so I was able to hang out with the other moms and catch up!  At the Friday night party we were even allowed to leave the bday party and go to dinner!
2. I was able to take the kids to the pool on Sunday.  The sun would peek out occasionally, and it only rained a couple of times, but the kids had a blast.  I just love watching them have fun playing with their friends.
3.  As we were sitting at the pool, the other moms and dads were indulging in some adult beverages.  I decided I wanted to be more proactive about the times I would and would not drink.  I didn't want to feel like I had to drink just because they were.  So, I brought my huge Thermos filled with ice water and drank on that.
4.  As you will read in a minute, we ate out too much this weekend, but I tried really hard to make good choices when I went out (most of the time).  I went with salads or things with grilled chicken and veggies.  When we went to Mexican I didn't even touch the cheese dip or chips!  That is huge for me.  If I eat just one chip then it is all over for me.  I will end up eating a couple baskets of chips. I ended up getting a chicken fajita salad.  The Italian restaurant we went to was not your everyday Italian place.  You couldn't just order spaghetti or ziti or common Italian dishes.  The pastas had weird names and I felt rushed and confused looking at the menu.  I ended up ordering a salad (which I really do like to eat) and it was good.  The dressing was a bit too sweet, but I could have done worse.

The Bad.
1. We ate out entirely too much this weekend. Friday night- dinner with moms at an Italian place.  Saturday- pizza at bday party and Chickfila for dinner (even caved and ate a chocolate chunk cookie! I blame that on T.O.M.)  Sunday- McDonald's for lunch (yuck) Mexican for dinner.
2.  I did not exercise not one time this weekend.  I felt so tired and sluggish all weekend.  I blame T.O.M. for that.  And because it has been so rainy, we did not get our family fun day in.  And not to mention The Hunster was out of town on Saturday.  I never was a weekend exerciser (is that a word?), but I do like the family outings we do.
3.  We went to a bday party Saturday afternoon and I had 2 slices of pizza and none of the fruit that was offered.  Well, I did have ONE cherry!  Does that count!?  (I didn't have any cake... well I should say I didn't get my own cake because I did have a bite of my daughters.)
4.  When we got back from the party on Saturday, my kids opened their goody bags (I really hate those things!) and there was lots of candy.  What kinds of candy you ask?  Well, let me tell you... CHOCOLATE!  I would guess at least 40 of the 100lbs that I have gained over the last 9 years was due to chocolate.  Seriously. If not more.  So, yes, I did have about 6 fun sized bars of various chocolate.  But I will say that there is actually some still left!  Hmmm, should not have thought about that because now I want to go eat it.  :)  Okay, okay! I heard you!  I promise I won't eat it! 
5. After that I went into a chocolate coma and took a 3 hour nap and let 2/3 of my kids watch TV for that long.  I know, MOM OF THE YEAR!  The other kid was actually napping, too. 
6. Sunday morning we did NOT go to the grocery store and get all of groceries for the week or do any food prep.  The Hunster was busy playing a video game with the son, and I was upstairs playing on FB and other really important things like that!

The Ugly.
1.  I am not going into details, but that Mexican food did not agree with my stomach. 

This is a new week and I plan on getting my workouts in each and every day. I have a short term goal to shoot for.  We are going to the beach Labor Day weekend with 2 other families, and I would love for my swimsuit that I have now to be too big for me by then!  I am not expecting to look like a super model by then, just to lose enough weight that I have to replace my swim suit!  I will work really hard for the next month and a half. 

Do you have any short term goals you are shooting for?  I would love to hear about them.


***Disclosure: No chocolate was eaten in the writing of this post!
T.O.M.= Time of Month

Friday, July 12, 2013

I Thought This Would Be A Quick Post!

I originally named this post A Quick Post, but as you will see, I had to change it!!

Last night I had a hard time falling asleep, AGAIN, ugh!  It was probably after midnight and then at some point in the middle of the night my littlest, SB, came in for something which I can't remember.  In my fog I convinced her to go back to bed and I was probably back asleep before she left my room.  Poor girl, she just wanted her Mommy and I was too tired to get my but up!  (But in my defense, SB, gets out of her bed a lot in the middle of the night for various reasons and I don't want her thinking she can just jump in my bed whenever she wants!  As much as I would love to snuggle her all night (and there are times when I just can't fight her anymore and she makes her way into the middle of us for the rest of the night), I can't sleep with the kiddos in my bed!  And The Hunster and I decided that we would make our bed a No Kid Zone! Although, if he is out of town or already up for the day, bring on the kids... well at least one of them!  Oh, Goodness, I just got very sidetracked there.  Moving on!

 My alarm went off at 6:30 and I barely remember hearing it!  I know I hit snooze a few times instead of turning it off!  (Way to go, ME!) So I got up a little after 7AM and dragged myself to the bathroom.  I got undressed and saw that scale staring at me... I stepped on it and I was down another 1 lb!  Wahoo!  So, I got dressed and made my way to the front door and got stopped by middle child, EB.  In her sweetest little voice, which she does NOT use very often, she said, "Mommy, can I go run with you?"  So so so so so so sweet!  I could have just taken her back to my bed and snuggled her all morning!  (Which is a very rare thing for EB to do!)  As that thought crossed my mind, I had to remind myself that I was doing this to be better for her and the other two.  So, I explained to her that I had to go by myself, but when she got bigger she could start going with me! 

So still exhausted, I headed out the door.  Turned on my Ease Into 5K app and started my workout.  I am on Week 3 of this app.  And I just realized as I typed that, that this was the farthest I have ever gone with this app before!  Wow!  You start with a 5 minute warm up and end with a 5 minute cool down.  This is what the rest of today's work out looked like:


Surprisingly the first half of it was quite easy.  I was all.. I got this!!!  But then I had to turn around and head back home!  What I realized was that most of my run/walks were downhill!!!  So the way back I had to go mostly uphill!!  Good Lawd!  I had to walk through one of my runs at the very end, but I am okay with that.  I know (at least I hope) that I will not be in this stage forever.  One day I will actually be able to run a whole 3 miles without stopping.  The good news is I finished and I survived and I am better for it!  I may have to do Week 3 again next week.  I would really like to be able to master this week before I move on to Week 4.  The Hunster seems to think I am Super Woman and that I will be able to do Week 4, but I'm thinking SLOW AND STEADY!!  (BTW, Week 4 has you running for 6 minutes at a time!  Yikes!)  You know, as I think about it, I actually completed the whole thing yesterday without stopping.
Here are my reasons that I think I was not able to do it completely today:
1. Not enough sleep.
2. More humidity than yesterday.
3. Yesterday my walk pace was slow and I tried to pick up the pace, which may have tired me out for my runs.
4.  And #3 also means that I was going a little faster in the beginning so when I turned around half way I was farther out than yesterday which means I had to conquer more hills on the way back than yesterday. 
5.  I need to drink more water.  I do drink water, but not nearly enough as I would like to.  Sounds like a challenge today! 


This is me after my run! 
Look at me Glisten!  (You know southern girls don't sweat!!)
 
I am so happy about all the love I have been getting on FB!  I think I am up to almost 30 likes!  I even had a comment on my blog post yesterday!  So excited! 

Well happy Friday and happy weekend to everyone!  I hope you do something fun and active with your family this weekend.  Between all the birthday parties, my plan is to take the kids to the pool.  We have also been trying to do family walks, hikes, or bike rides every weekend.  I am excited about these memories we are building for my kids! 



Thursday, July 11, 2013

A BIG virtual hug from me to you!!

Well this week I focused a lot of my attention on getting my blog started and my new FB page going.  I have been on the computer a lot more than usual these last few days.  I have loved reading all the FB post and blog entries! 

It has been so encouraging, but the last couple of days I have been in a rut.  Probable causes of the rut:
1. It has been raining sooooo much here in Atlanta and when it rains I feel like I HAVE to be lazy!!!
2. FB and Blogs... enough said!! 
3.  I haven't been able to fall asleep and I stay up till 2 AM.  I just wasn't able to shut my mind off!  I think about this new fabulous blog (LOL!) and my new FB page and all the LIKES I so desperately want! I am also a teacher and this is the time of the summer when I start thinking about my classroom and everything I need to do to at school!  **side note- I am changing classrooms this year and I am super stressed!  I walked into my new classroom and saw all the stuff piled up and I still have stuff piled up in my old room.  I almost cried, but I did get a lot of my furniture moved into place, but I still have SO MUCH TO DO!!  So do you understand why I haven't been able to sleep??? 

Well, last night I went to bed at a more reasonable hour.  It was more like 11:00, which is better than 2 AM!  I told myself that the blogging world and the FB world would still be there when I woke up!  ARE YOU STILL HERE?  ANYONE???  FEEL FREE TO COMMENT AND LET ME KNOW YOU ARE HERE!!!  I set my alarm for 6:30 and after a couple of times of hitting snooze (and not turning the damn thing off!)  I was up and dressed by 7AM.  I kept thinking of all of my 'new best friends!' in this blogging world and you encouraged me to get my butt out of bed!  I have read all about the awesome things y'all have been doing and eating, and I said if my BFFs can do it so can I!  So I walked out of the door and turned on my Ease Into 5k program on my iPhone.  (This program is pretty much a Couch to 5K training program.  I did pay for the app, but I love it.)  Here are my stats from today:

I have actually noticed my run pace get better!
 
Then when I got home I decided to put in my 30 Day Shred DVD.  I mean it is only 24 minutes with warm up and cool down.  But, let me tell you... she ain't no joke!  This video is broken into 3 levels depending on your ability.  I started at level 1.  She gives you a 2 minute warm up, which made me break out a sweat!!  Then you rotate through 3- 6 minute rounds of strength, cardio, and abs.  Then you end with a 2 minute cool down.  You really only do each exercise for about 30 seconds, but OMG it was so hard!  And I will admit that I didn't actually finish it all today, but I blame my husband!  He was upstairs getting ready for work and was yelling for me to shave his neck, gross!!  So when I finished I didn't have the strength to go and finish the last 8ish minutes.  I will knock the whole thing out tomorrow though!  Here is a picture that SB, my 3yo, took of me while doing this DVD:
This angle makes me look like
 I am as tall as my ceilings!

I can at least say that I am proud of myself for getting out of bed this morning!  Now if I can continue to do that every morning.  (I will have to come up with a strong plan once school starts back though.) 

So enjoy your hug and keep up the good work while encouraging me at the same time!

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Where do I begin?

I guess I should start by introducing myself.  I don't really know who I am introducing myself to because as of right now, I don't have any followers!!  Haha!  So it's like I am just talking to myself!

 My name is Jaime, I am 37 yo, and I live in metro Atlanta.  I am a mother of three children.  I have an almost 7 yo son,JB, a 4yo daughter, EB, and a 3 yo daughter SB.  I work as a full time Kindergarten teacher at a local public school.  I am married to my Best Friend, The Hunster.  He is super fit and super sexy!  He does it all... he runs, lifts weights, rides bikes... 

I feel like I have always struggled with my weight, but when I look back at pictures from high school, I am like... Damn Girl!!!  I think, back then I always compared myself to my sister, who was super duper skinny, and a lot of my smaller friends.  I had it in my mind that I was fat.  I was probably like a size 8/10 back then. Oh, if I could have that body back!  I was also VERY shy and lacked confidence in my self.

Crack Me Up!!

 This is me in high school. 
Please look past the hair and fashion.
Okay so fast forward to college.  I was introduced to alcohol and that brought with it a bit of confidence, which allowed me to come out of my shell.  It also brought on the Freshman 15 (or more)!!  So, after two years of partying, I left that college and moved back home with my parents... major bummer...  I went through a bit of a depression because I missed my social life.  I didn't really have any of my friends in my hometown with me.  I pretty much went to school ( a local college) and laid in bed!  My mom finally convinced me to find a job and I did.  I think I lost most of the college weight through depression.  Anyway, I FINALLY finshed college and then moved to the BIG CITY! 

I got my first teaching job, 1st grade, and moved into an apartment with my bestie!  We had so much fun living together!  She was a nurse working the night shift, so our working hours were complete opposites.  We acted like we were 21 again and definitely took advantage of all Atlanta had to offer!  I really feel bad for the class I had that year.  I used up all of my hangover sick days that year!  I lived in Atlanta for the next three years and my weight crept up to just over 200 lbs.  OMG!  I joined a gym and the weight started to come off slowly, but it was hard with the lifestyle we were living.

I decided I wanted to get my life back in order, so I moved back to South GA, again, to move in with my parents.  (Yes, you read that right I was 26 years old working as a teacher and living with my parents!  Loser!)  I paid off my debt and lost  a lot of the weight.  I was a member of a local gym and I worked out all the time.  (Remember, I didn't have a lot of friends in my hometown, and I LIVED WITH MY PARENTS, so I had some free time on my hands!)  Anyway, I was in the best shape of my adult life and I ended meeting The Hunster. The next year I found myself engaged and living back up near Atlanta!

I can see my collar bones!!
 
 
So that brings us to the last 9 years.  (Wow, I have rambled on!)  I got married, had 3 kids, and gained almost 100lbs, and lost a lot of myself.  I AM MISERABLE!! 
So this is a pretty current picture of me. 
I have actually gained some weight since this picture was taken.
I hate full length pics of me!





















I am here to document this journey to better my health, my confindence, and my relationships.  I am hoping this blog will help me become accountable for the choices I make.  (Um, it would really help me out if I could get some followers so I could at least pretend I am talking to SOMEONE!!  ANYONE??)